If you relapse, repeat after me:
- You are not weak.
- You have not lost this battle.
- You are not selfish.
- You are not out of control.
- All the progress you made hasn’t magically disappeared.
- You are not a failure.
- Life is a cycle of highs and lows- good times are ahead, so keep going forward.
- You matter.
I haven’t been at my best lately. To be honest, it has been a struggle with more downs than ups, more gaining weight than losing it, and it hasn’t been a day that I don’t think about quitting. But I tell myself not to stop, because it’s my mind I have to convince. I know I can do it but dealing with mental illness is very tricky, it can convince you otherwise.
That’s why I have to constantly remind myself that it’s ok to have difficulties and it’s ok to struggle but it’s not ok to quit. I have to keep going no matter what because I am in control of my own body and I choose to do this.
So today I wear all black, because it’s a funeral to the person I was yesterday, the person that didn’t believe in herself. I’m making myself better each day and I’m not letting anything stop me.